Dark Matters

by Merlin Ball

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released July 9, 2017

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Track Name: Dark Matters
It’s not that you’re my daughter
It’s not that you’re my mother

Cuz you’re not

It’s not that you're my lover
Some kind of significant other

Cuz you're not
No you're not

It’s not that you’re my nursemaid
Swaddling me so tightly

Cuz you're not

No light to help me see
No endless well of gravity
No source of all my love
No place for my thought

Neither a voice I hear
Nothing loud and nothing clear
Nor a warm pillow for my head
A place to lay my mind to rest

No you're not

It’s not that you're my savior
A quick fix to salvation

Cuz you're not
Track Name: When She Comes
Does she come to you like a dream
And let you think you stay there
The joys that you have been
As bright as any day

A cool kiss on the forehead
On an overheated brow
Does she whisper what is happening
And does she show you how

This is not an obsession
Nothing I need to know
Just a moment of indulgent curiosity
They come and go

Do you even know it’s happening
Present for any thought
If nothing comes from nothing
Are we nothing all along

Does she come to you in a dream
A sudden crest of adrenaline
Lift you up on dopamine
Out of time
Track Name: What's Going On?
Wish I had a scientific mind
Seems to be the only way to find
What’s going on with us

Take an x and the square root of pi
Figure out what to divide it by
What’s going on with us

Read a couple books most of ‘em agree
Everything is heavy and thick with gravity
Must be full of something something we can’t see
What does any of it say about you and me

Some kinda calorie
Sudden burst of ecstasy
Maybe we just fall asleep
What’s going on with us
Tear apart reality
Are you you and am I me
This could make us both crazy
What’s going on with us

Tried religion but religion only showed
How to reconcile with stuff that we don’t know
Like what’s going on with us

Climbed some mountains and sat by some seas
No matter where I went kept bumping into me
What’s going on with us

The poets and scientists most of them agree
Nothing comes from nothing so what does that make me
Either you’re a figment and I am just a dream
Or are we missing something so basic we can’t see
Track Name: Nostalgia
Not for a moment
Would I go back
Not for a moment
No more of that

Standing in the plaza
Surrounded by my friends
Picking at a scab
On my middle finger
Can’t recall the details
What we were laughing about
All I know is
I was terrified

Not for a moment
Would I go back
Not for a moment
No more of that

No one to blame
Nobody out there hurt me
Surround by it all
Exactly what we had
Can’t recall the details
Why my skin was on inside out
All I know is
I was terrified

Not for a moment
Would I go back
Not for a moment
No more of that
Track Name: Honey
I wish you all
Peace and love
I wish you all
Of the above

Be kind
Be generous
Throw away
The superfluous

I wish you all
Joy and cheer
I wish you all
A happy new year

Be good
Be considerate
If you haven't yet
You gotta try it

Just watch me
Follow my example
Just watch me
Yeah you gotta try it
Track Name: Not A Thing
Not a boy
Not a girl
Not a man
Not a woman
Not a cat
Not a dog
Not a breeze
Not a god

Not a hope
Not a prayer
Not a shiver
Not a fear
Not a flash
Not a sound
Not a caress
Not a scent

Not a word
Not a thought
Not a breath
Not a shout
Not a song
Nat a pause
Not a dream
Not an absence

Not a thing
No you’re not a thing
Track Name: Carbon
The heat coming off this slab of stone
Scattered as they fell ashes and bones
Gently pick one up place it in the box
There’s truly nothing left yet here we are

Here we are

Empty as a thought airy as a whisper
A prayer to the silence is all that I can give here
Spaces in between everything we hope for
All that matters now is everything we lose

They are so fragile they are so light
Carbon in a field of sunning butterflies

Here we are

Empty as a thought airy as a whisper
A prayer to the silence is all that I can give here
Spaces in between everything we hope for
All that matters now is everything we live for
Track Name: Ether
Something happens
Make a memory
Stored in the ether of mind
A scent a song
And pop there it is
Pulled back into time

I pull you closer
Drift into sleep
We dream in ether
You and me

The cold calculus
Of creation warmed
By our last breath and release
To push apart
The emptiness
Pack the spaces between
Track Name: For You
This is too early
This is too quick
It isn’t fair
You got so sick

I ain’t ready
For you to go
I need you with me
On this road

What to do
Just stroke your hair
Whisper nothing
Into thin air

I ain’t ready
To say good-bye
But it’s you
Who has to die

Thank you
For you
Good bye

The pain is real
I can tell
You’re going through
Utter hell

So soon
You’ll be free
Can you wait a bit
For me